Why do I love my body, Why do I love all the flaws and imperfections that come with my Intersex body. Why am I comfortable with my body and myself. It’s because I learn to accept my body for what it is. I learn to like and accept all the flaws, and imperfections that I am born with. As a Nudist, I am comfortable in my skin and the body I am in. I’m happy with what I have, and no amount of surgery can never change that. Surgery can not buy me happiness and the kind of happiness I have in body acceptance and acceptance of my Intersex condition.
As an Intersex person, I am always peer pressured within the Intersex community to take Estrogen or consider genital surgery. Their are people within the Intersex community who pressure Intersex people to go through the transgender route and get genital surgery. I have even seen Intersex people and trans people pressure Intersex people to take estrogen. I see this kind of pressure because Intersex people have a hard time in accepting their Intersex body and themselves. I have seen them body shame them into erasing their body because people are not taught to be comfortable with the body their in . As a result, they body shame them into surgery to erase their intersex body. You see it every day in magazines and online, where people are pressured to fit the perfect body.
Which is why Intersex people have a hard time in accepting their bodies because people and society pressure Intersex people into erasing their bodies and erasing their existence. Intersex people are not taught body acceptance and body freedom. Their not taught to love their body for what it is and to be comfortable with what they are born with. They are shamed into hiding and erasing it because they don’t want to admit that an Intersex body is healthy and is as normal as any other body.
It’s why as an Intersex person and a Nudist, I am very comfortable with my body. I’m very happy with all the flaws and imperfections I am born with. I’m comfortable with the fact that I’ll never be a normal natural male or female. I know that no amount of surgery of any kind will make me normal. I know that genital surgery is only artificial and won’t cure the problem. I learn to accept all the imperfections that come with an Intersex body such as ambiguous genitals, a Micropenis and gynecomastia. Even how I see my self, I know I will never be a normal male or a normal female.
It’s why through nudism, I learn how to deal with being born with an Intersex condition. I learn to accept my body for what it is and be very comfortable with it. I learn, that no surgery in the world will ever make me happy and comfortable. It’s why Intersex people need to learn to accept their body for what it is and learn to accept themselves for who they are. They don’t need to be pressured by people to take genital surgery and hormones. They need to get away from that and learn body acceptance and body freedom.
It’s why I have advocated that Intersex people give Nudism a try because they will learn that an Intersex body is no different than anyone else. They will see all body types and all body forms that are naturally occurring. If they took a trip to a Nudist resort or a nude beach, they can see that Nudist are very accepting of all body types and all body forms. They can see that no amount of surgery will ever make them whole or happy. It’s why as an Intersex person and a Nudist, I am comfortable with who I am and comfortable with all the flaws and imperfections that I am born with.
One thing I have noticed as an Intersex/DSD person and a Nudist, is that when you accept your body for what it is, you come to terms with all the flaws and imperfections that come with being born with an Intersex/DSD condition and being a nudist. I have learned that not amount of surgery in the world would ever make me happy for who I am and what I am. Which is why as an Intersex/DSD person and a nudist, I am happy with the body I am born with. I’m comfortable in my own skin and even not a shame with all the flaws and imperfections that I am born with.
The thing I find very hard within the Intersex/DSD community is that there is no acceptance of their own bodies. Intersex/DSD people are not accepting themselves for who they are. Their not comfortable in their own skin and their own genitals. The reason for that, is pressure from medicine, society and people. It’s pressure from the medical community to hide and deny Intersex and DSD people their bodies and existence. Their’s pressure from society into pigeon holing Intersex and DSD people into the biological Male and Female gender. Even the Trans community has even put pressure and try to push Intersex and DSD people into gender/genital surgery. Which is why Intersex people have such a hard time in accepting their Intersex bodies. There is no one out their to tell Intersex/DSD people who it’s okay to be born with an Intersex/DSD body and to be happy with what you have.
Which is why for me for me, as an Intersex/DSD person and a Nudist, I’m very comfortable in my own skin. I’m happy with what I have including all the flaws such as Micropenis, ambiguous genitals, and small breast growth. I’m comfortable with the fact I look years younger than my age. Why I am comfortable in my own skin, is that Nudism’s philosophy is all about body acceptance. It’s learning to accept your body for what it is and learning to deal with what you have. Nudism has shown that no body is perfect and it’s okay to have flaws and imperfections. Even being born with an Intersex/DSD body is perfectly okay and natural. Nudism is a way to say, I am happy with my body as it is. I’m comfortable with who I am and all the flaws and imperfections that I am born with.
It’s why, if Intersex/DSD people gave Nudism a chance, they can see that there is nothing wrong with their bodies and everyone is born with imperfections and flaws. Nudism even shows, that you don’t need surgery to be happy with who you are. You just have to be comfortable with your own skin and learn to deal with what your naturally born with. For me, I’m not ashamed of my Intersex/DSD body. I’m comfortable with my Intersex/DSD body and no surgery in the world would make me happy Nudism has made me happy with my body and accepting of my intersex/DSD body for what it is.
It’s why I advocate that Intersex/DSD people need learn about body acceptance and learn to accept their Intersex body for what it is. You don’t need those artificial acceptance, that medicine, society and people pressure Intersex/DSD people. They just need to learn to accept themselves and accept their body that their born with. Even learn to be comfortable with the skin their born with. Which is why I am one of the few Intersex/DSD people who are also a Nudist and have been a nudist for a long time.
My naked Self portrait
Today, I had my early update with my Nurse Practitioner to check my Hormone levels and a status update. One thing she asked me was that whether I considered myself to be Male. I know she told me Medically I am male but because of my Micropenis and ambiguous genitalia. I am classed as being Intersex/DSD (Disorders of Sexual Development).
So for me, I just see myself as an incomplete male and an incomplete female. Which as a result is more in the area of biological indeterminate gender. I’m not nowhere near a Natural Normal biological male and female. I’m stuck in between and medically induced to make the appearance of looking male. Though how I see myself, I don’t see myself as a normal male or a female at all. I just see myself as someone stuck in between male and female. As a result, I am just a biological indeterminate gender and don’t have a natural gender to begin with. So naturally, I am neither male or female. I’m more like a tomboy in between both.
My Nurse Practitioner sees me as being Intersex/DSD and classes me as having Intersex/DSD. She knows about the DSD (Disorders of Sexual Development) manual and knows that Kallmann’s syndrome is classed as a Disorders of Sexual Development, which results me being classed as an Intersex condition as well.
One thing she did tell me is that medically, my Hormones are near a normal Male. She even told me, If I wasn’t on HRT, my Hormone levels, Naturally would not be near the level of a Natural human Male. So because of my genetic condition my Hormone levels are medically induced and I know that if I wasn’t on Hormones, they would be at a very low level.
As far as identifying as a Male, biologically no. That’s because biologically I was never born male and because of the micropenis and ambiguous genitalia. I’m just an incomplete male and an incomplete female. In terms of Genetics and DNA, I am just in the middle between a man and a woman. Though Medically, I am induced to look like a male. Without it, I would just look like young kid about to hit puberty.
So for me, My hormones are at a normal level and they are medically enhanced to make me look like a male, but Naturally, I will never be near a normal male or a normal female. It’s why for me, I just simply say I’m in the middle between male and female. I don’t see myself as male nor female and that’s because of Biology and Genetics. Also I do like my Nurse Practitioner is the main reason why I am going to college to be like her as well.