My Lack of Opportunities in my life

One thing about my college experience at Eastern that i have found lacking is the fact that, I never had a chance to get involve, give and be active on campus. I never had a chance to join a club, play sports or even take an active leadership role on campus. The problem with Eastern is that they never offered ample opportunities for me to get involve, lead and take an active participation in college life. My college life at Eastern pretty much reminds me of going to community college and not being involved socially. As a Senior who is graduating next year, I never had a chance to make something out of myself on campus and never had any opportunities to lead, give or get involved on campus.

What sucks about Eastern is that they never give any opportunities to lead, take an active role, give or be a member of a social club or play sports on campus. As an intersex / DSD person and a Deaf person, I had a rough time finding a club where I can join. Finding a place where I can take an active leadership role or play in a sports team. I just find that inclusion and diversity is a huge issue on my campus because no one is giving people a chance and the people who run clubs or student government are the same people who do the same thing over and over. It’s why for me, I never had any opportunities and all the opportunities I had on campus, other people had taken them and never give me a chance. I hardly ever had a chance to be in student government or be a club president or a student leader on campus. My opportunities for those went out the window because the people who are in them are the ones from last year. The College never tells them to give new people a chance. It’s why I was never able to be involved on campus at Eastern Connecticut state university and that I sometimes feel like I got denied because of my intersex / DSD condition and my Deaf disability.

Even out in the community, I hardly ever get a chance to use my skills or my licence. Every organization I have been in, I never get a chance or they make it so hard that they often times push me out the door. Even as an EMT, I had very little opportunities to use my EMT license or my EMT skills that I learned. That’s cause there are very few Vol EMS squads near where I live or that the requirements make it so hard for me to stay active, that I am often times pushed out or left behind. Every organization I have been in, I never had an active leadership role. I never been a club president or an officer in an EMS squad. Instead, I never had any opportunities  and I never had a chance to use what I learned. My only wish is that I wished I had an Vol EMS squad that would let me have a chance to use my EMT skills. Even I wish their was a community organization that would let me take an active role or even lead as well.

The sad part is, no matter where I go, I never get a chance to either be an active member, take a leadership role or give. I get road blocked, denied and even pushed aside or shoved into a corner. Sometimes I feel like No one wants me in their club, organization and doesn’t want me to give or lead. Instead they want me to disappear and often times as a result, I end up doing things by myself and working for myself. I don’t get to interact and be social, which helps me make more friends. Which as a result, I have very few friends, I do things by myself and I don’t get to socialize.

Which is why I am use to being by myself on campus and in the community because no one has EVER gave me a chance or an opportunity to lead or give. It’s why I sometimes think that my Disability is a hindrance and that no one bothers to give disable people like me a chance to do things and be active members of the community. Which most times, I wind up going solo or stag and alone. I wind up planing my own events and doing my thing. No one ever gives me a chance and wind up doing things alone. It’s why on campus, I get the chance to socialize, make friends, take a leadership role or give to the campus community. It’s the one thing that bothers me the most because as a Senior at Eastern Connecticut State Univ, I never had the chance to socialize, make friends, lead or be active on campus. I’m pretty much isolated on campus and that sometimes is depressing but I gotten use to it and done things by myself.