Sometimes, I tell people about the hardest part of ever being born with an Intersex/DSD condition is how people hardly don’t notice you or even see you at all. with all that I have and what I am born with from Kallmann’s syndrome down to Vitiligo, it’s very hard to be noticed, seen or taken seriously these days. The hardest part is people not allowing me to do all the things that everyone else gets to do because due to having Kallmann’s syndrome, I look way younger than my age and the perception that people have is that people think I look to young to be doing things. Which as a result, I get denied opportunities to do things or lead or even manage things.
It’s why many times in my life, I don’t get to do all the things that every human being on this planet get to do because of what I am born with. Even if I have all those certifications, degrees or licenses, i still won’t be able to do things because people would think I look way too young to be doing them. It’s why for example, i’m in the US Coast Guard Auxiliary and the highest I have ever gotten up to is FSO-DV aka Flotilla Staff officer- diversity. I have never gone has high up as Division, district or national because I have never been given the opportunity to move up or that no one has ever offered me any opportunities to advance. Even when it comes to pursuing US Coast Guard certifications such as Boat crew, I never got the opportunity because people thought I was too young looking to be doing that.
Even in college, I was never given the chance to run a club, play sports, lead a student government or even be an RA in a dorm. All those were denied to me because people looked at me and though I was too young looking to do those things. Which was why I never got a good college education including the social skills and group skills in college. College never helped me socialize and it was all based on who you know and how well connected are you. It’s why the college I graduated from, I never got to run a club, play sports, lead a student government or even be an RA in a dorm. It’s why I never got to have the social life because of having Kallmann’s syndrome, vitiligo and looking years younger than my age.
Even when it comes to dating and relationships, I am still single to this day and most likely will be single to the very end. That’s due into part because having Kallmann’s syndrome, I am always overlooked by women because I look way too young looking for them. It’s why at my age right now, I don’t bother to date and dating and relationships are the last thing on my list. That’s because having Kallmann’s Syndrome and Vitiligo, always rejected by people and people overlook me. That’s why when it comes to women, I always have this mentality that every women I see, I assume they are either a lesbian/bisexual or already taken. It’s why because of Kallmann’s syndrome and Vitiligo, I don’t even think about dating and relationships.
It’s why many things I could, would and should have done in my life, I never got to do because the fact that I look way younger looking than my age. The fact that I have Kallmann’s syndrome and Vitiligo is one of those factors in why opportunities are often denied to me and sometimes I have to create my own opportunities despite having all the opportunities slammed shut on me. It’s why being younger looking is nice but it has a steep price, which I am paying for because of Kallmann’s syndrome and vitiligo.