Tag: Intersex

Fighting to be given a chance

The one thing I always learned in life is that you have to flight hard for everything. I have always fought over everything in life and have fought since the day I could walk and talk. I fought hard sometimes, that it nearly killed me. Other times I fought so hard that I was mentally drained after it was finished.  I’ve always had to fight to exist and to be normal like everyone else. I always had to fight to be given a chance and fight to try something. It’s been my nature that I had to fight over everything.

Why I fight to be given a chance at something? It’s because I was never born into privilege or access to opportunities that everyone else had. I was never given the same equal access or opportunities that everyone else had in life. I had to struggle and fight my way to be given a shot. I had to fight so hard to find doors to open for me, opportunities for me and people who were willing to give me a chance. I even had to fight so hard just to be normal and be me. I also had to fight hard when people question my idenity, age, race, sex, gender and even my Intersex condition. I fought over it and I still do to this day. Pretty much my whole life is on a wartime footing and i’m always fighting to be given a chance.

It’s why I am always fighting to be given a shot or a chance to do something because no one has ever given me a chance or never offered me a chance. Everyone tried to push me away or hide me in the shadows because they don’t want to give me a chance to prove something. It’s why people who I encoutered, never gave me a chance and never offered me the same equal opportunities that every human being gets.

It’s why no matter where I go, what I want to be or what I want to do in life. I’m always going to be fighting hard and fighting to the very end to at least be given a chance or a shot at something. I’m always going to be fighting hard to do things and be part of something that no one has ever given me a chance. It’s why I have always fought for myself and never for anyone else because I frankly don’t trust people fighting for me. So I have to do it myself, if I want something.

It’s why in Life, and especially my life. I’m always going to be on a wartime footing because people never ever gave me a chance in life. I was never privilaged and never had the same equal oppotunities as everyone else. Even with my Intersex/DSD condition and my disablity, No one that I ever encountered never gave me a chance or shot at something. I literally had to fight very hard just to get a chance to do something that everyone else get’s to do. It’s why I am always on a wartime footing and fighting to exist and be given the same opportunties as everyone else.

Looking younger than your age ain’t easy

The one thing I don’t tell people is that having Kallmann’s syndrome, your never taken that seriously because I look way younger than my age. As a 40 yr old with Kallmann’s syndrome, I look way too young looking to be a 40 years old. In fact, I hardly can ever pass as a 40 year old and instead, I am often told I look like in my early 20’s than 40 years old. Even some cases, I am often told that I often look like a late teenager than an adult. It’s the unfortunate side effect of having Kallmann’s syndrome that people don’t hear or even talk about. Though it’s one of the many side effects of having Kallmann’s syndrome that I have to face and deal with for the rest of my life

When you look younger than your actual age, people don’t take you very seriously no matter how many titles, names, label’s or experiences you have. I could have all the names, titles, and labels in the world but, if you don’t look the age for the name,titles and labels. It would mean nothing to me no matter how old I am. It’s why in my case, regardless of how many names, titles, labels or experiences I have. I’m never taken very seriously because of how much young looking I really am. It’s a struggle for me because looking 10 or 15 years younger than your actual age. It’s hard for people to actually take you seriously and look at me as an important person. It’s why it’s a struggle with the fact that having Kallmann’s syndrome, I’m always going to look younger than my age and never be taken seriously, no matter how many names, titles, labels or experiences I have in life. people just won’t see me as a normal person, let alone a human being.

I see it all the time, no matter where I go in life. No one ever takes me very seriously despite the fact that I look 10 to 15 years younger than my age. Even as an EMT, I’m hardly ever taken very seriously because I look younger than my age and often times like a late teen to young adult age. Alot of people won’t take me very seriously because I don’t look the age for the job. It’s almost like me being a version of that 1980’s show called Doogie Howser, M.D. The only difference is that I have an Intersex medical condition makes me look way younger looking than my age. It’s why I, often times, think that because I have Kallmann’s syndrome, that I think I am reliving the Doogie Howser, M.D Tv show. With a twist that I look younger than my age. If you never heard of what Doogie Howser, M.D Tv show is, here’s a clip of the opening of the show

The sad reality is that, no matter how old I am. I’m always going to be looked at as being younger looking than my age and never taken seriously or very important. The fact that I have an Intersex condition called Kallmann’s syndrome, is why, despite being the legal age of 40 years old. I’m always going to have people who won’t take me seriously as a person. I will always have people who, despite all the names, labels, experiences and titles in front of my name. I will never be taken very seriously or be seen as an important person. It’s why when people think that looking younger than your ages is easy, cool and sexy. They should talk to me and I can really show them the reality of what it means to look younger than your age and what it does to a person like me. It’s the one thing that having an Intersex/DSD condition called Kallmann’s syndrome dose to an individual.

Facebook’s obsurd Nudity standards

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It seems like Facebook aka facistbook is getting more absurd by the day. A couple of days a go I posted a pic on Instagram that was shared on Facebook and for some reason today, they took it down because they though this picture contained Nudity. Really Facebook, you think this picture contains some kind of nudity. If Facebook thinks this contains some kind of Nude Image, than I wonder what is the Facebook standard for obscene these days? It just seems like Facebook can’t distinguish anything these days and that Facebook is getting more retarded by the day.

Being an Intersex/DSD person, I think Facebook unfairly targeted me because they thought I was female. It seems to me that Facebook can’t distinguish the difference between male, female and Intersex people. That’s why I think Facebook is full of shit because if they think this picture contains nudity. Then they are surly beyond retarded and have gone full blown stupid. It makes me wonder if women who wear something like this and either get a pass on Facebook or taken down.