Intersex/DSD matters

What matters to me the most is that being born with an Intersex / DSD condition is not a biological sex, gender, Gender Identity or a sexual orientation. It’s a medical condition that I am born with from birth and something I have to face a deal with for the rest of my life. I don’t see being born Intersex / DSD as a biological sex, Gender, Gender Identity or sexual orientation. I know many people think being born with an Intersex / DSD condition is a biological sex, gender, gender Identity or sexual orientation. The Reality is, that being Born with an Intersex / DSD condition is not a Biological sex, Gender, Gender Identity or Sexual orientation. Being born with an intersex / DSD condition has real health side effects that are not fun to deal with and can impact you for the rest of your life.

Being born with an Intersex /  DSD condition called Kallmann’s Syndrome really matters to me. That’s because it’s what I am born with and what I have to face and deal with. I know I have to deal with being deaf in one ear. Not having the ability to smell anything. Having a micropenis that you barely notice being their at all. Look years younger than your age. Having ambiguous genitals. On top of that not having any Natural hormones in my system and being on Hormone therapy for the rest of my life. The worst of it, is being at a very high risk for osteoporosis. because being an Asian American and having an Intersex / DSD condition. It’s not fun having these kinds of health issues because some can be fatal and some have long-term health effects that may harm me as I get older.

What I tell people that Intersex / DSD is not a biological sex, gender, Gender Identity or a sexual orientation because I don’t see Intersex / DSD as a biological sex, gender, Gender Identity or a sexual orientation. The way I see Intersex /  DSD is that Intersex / DSD people never had a biological sex, gender, gender identity or sexual orientation to begin with. Medical science can never pin biological sex, gender, Gender Identity or a sexual orientation on Intersex / DSD people. I always see being born with an Intersex /  DSD condition as being the biological middle between men and women.  For me, being born with an Intersex / DSD is a medical condition I am born with and something I have to deal with. Their’s no sex, gender, gender identity or sexual orientation in Intersex /  DSD. It’s just another medical condition like Diabetes and heart disease.

That’s why being born with an Intersex /  DSD condition matters to me because I don’t associate intersex / DSD with sex, gender, gender identity or sexual orientation, that is so common in the LGBT.  I simply see it as being born with a medical issues that I have to deal with for the rest of my life. It’s why for me, Sex, gender, gender identity & sexual orientation issues is something I don’t want to deal with because I would rather me, than have to deal with the Sex, gender, gender identity & sexual orientation crap. It’s something I am comfortable with because I rather focus on being myself than having to deal with societies Sex, gender, gender identity & sexual orientation issues.

Nudist group discrimination

English: Swimming pool at the Monts de Bussy N...
English: Swimming pool at the Monts de Bussy Naturist camp. Français : Piscine dans le camping naturiste des Monts de Bussy. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

One thing that irritates me is that how so many Nudist groups like to preach tolerance and acceptance. Then, when you disagree with them, they boot you and leave you out in the cold. I always thought the concept of Nudism is body acceptance and tolerance. Which to me, fast becoming a farce on it’s face because Many Nudist groups I have seen on Facebook don’t practice what they preach and don’t tolerate other people’s opinion. Which to me, makes me wonder what kind of Nudism are we suppose to have, when we can’t even tolerate other people having dissenting opinions.

Which is why as an Intersex / DSD person, deaf person and a Nudist, I don’t get involve with many established nudist groups because I feel that my voice is never heard and dissenting opinions are never allowed. At the same time, no many Nudist groups make themselves open and tolerant to people with different opinions and views. Even some nudist groups and Nudist resorts are not open to many people who are different, racially, ethnically and in terms of biological sex & gender. That’s why I tend to do things by myself because many nudist groups are not accommodating and understanding. They tend to push me out and push me off the cliff. Which in the end forces me to do my own thing and go to nude camping trips by myself and on my own, without any friends or buddies.

It dose piss me off when I feel that Nudist groups discriminate against me. Then they wonder why Nudism is graying and not getting any younger members involved. Instead, they push aside the younger nudist and special interest nudist groups. The sad part is that many Nudist groups who say they are tolerant, are in reality not that tolerant and are only tolerant on curtain things. That’s why I don’t join any Nudist clubs because Nudist clubs are not Tolerant, open and understanding. Instead, they act very exclusive and exclusionary than inclusive.

It’s why as an Intersex / DSD person, deaf person and a Nudist, I find it very hard to be involve with the Nudist community because they tend to not be inclusive towards those who are different from them or who have a disability. They make you feel like your not wanted or welcomed at all. So instead, they set themselves up to be exclusionary and not inclusive. Which makes me feel like I am not wanted or welcomed at all. It’s why I don’t get involve with any Nudist groups and if I wanted to go nude camping at a resort, I mostly go stag and by myself instead of with a friend. In reality, I don’t have many friends outside of the Internet, which I have gotten use to that. Pretty much doing things on my own and by myself. Which I learned to work alone.

What it means to born with an Intersex/DSD condition

What being born with an Intersex/DSD to me is that I don’t see being born with an Intersex/DSD condition as a Biological sex, gender, gender identity or sexual orientation. Intersex/DSD is a medical term to describe the fact that I have Kallmann’s syndrome. My version of Kallmann’s syndrome is the Kal-1 variation of Kallmann’s syndrome. Which means yes, I do have a micropenis and I do look very younger than my age. It’s why as an Intersex/DSD person with Kallmann’s syndrome, I don’t and never see my genetic medical condition as a biological sex, gender, gender identity or sexual orientation. I simply see Kallmann’s syndrome as just a medical condition that I am born with and I have to face and deal with.

What people don’t understand with my intersex / DSD medical condition, being Asian American, Laotian American and deaf in one ear. I have to work 3 times as hard to be accepted, recognized and heard. I have to fight a never-ending battle to simply exist and be accepted in a society that sometimes thinks I’m not intersex enough or intersex at all. I even have to fight, just to be heard, when many people would want to silence me and erase me for being a Laotian American who is deaf in one ear and born with an intersex/DSD condition called Kallmann’s syndrome. It’s a never-ending battle because too many times, I get trans and LGBT people who try to shut me down or run me out because they think I am not intersex enough or intersex at all. Even in my Intersex community, I often times have to face racism and sexism because being a racial minority, within a minority community. I don’t have a voice or a chance to tell my story. I get shut out and denied a chance to tell my story.

It’s why many people don’t know what I have to put up with and what I have to deal with, simply to be accepted as a person, let alone a human being who has an Intersex/DSD condition. The amount of racism and sexism I see in the LGBT and even in society is mind-blowing. I see so much of it, that many times I wonder why it’s worth the effort just to tell your story. Many times, I try my hardest to speak up for those who can never speak up or are too shy, but no matter how hard I try, my voice never get’s heard or it get’s silenced by the LGBT community.

What intersex/DSD means for me, is that I don’t see being intersex/DSD as a biological sex, gender, gender Identity or sexual orientation.  I don’t look at Intersex as a label or identity. I see Intersex/DSD as a medical condition that encompasses many genetic DNA conditions that are listed as Intersex/DSD. I don’t sexualize being born with an Intersex/DSD condition and in fact I don’t look at it as a label or an identity. To me, Intersex/DSD is simply a medical condition that I am born with and I have to deal with for the rest of my life. Some people may see it as a sex, gender or gender Identity. To me, I don’t see it that way and I try my hardest to distance intersex/DSD from all the sex, gender, gender ID and sexual orientation politics.

That’s why for me, being born with an Intersex/DSD condition, I don’t care for all the sex and gender crap. I don’t care if people don’t think I’m not Intersex/DSD enough because the only people who I do care and REALLY know I am Intersex/DSD is my Nurse Practitioner and my doctor. People may think I am not intersex enough, but when they see me naked, they may have to think twice before judging me. It’s why for me as an Asian American, Laotian American and a deaf person, I have to fight very hard to be accepted as a person. No matter where I go in life, I am constantly on a wartime footing. I simply have to fight just to be human and be myself. It’s a never-ending battle because of the pressures I face in society and what I have to deal with . If people only knew what I have to face and deal with, they would be shocked and blown out of their minds.